I once told myself to never fall in love...
everything that falls
breaks
But I did fall...
inexplicably, no-reasons-behind-it love.
Sadly, some part of me knew that this was one of those whirlwind romances that was just never going to last a lifetime.
My intentions were always questioned. Was it so puzzling to feel as deeply as one should at the start of a relationship? When you put out everything you have, why is it taken with disdain... and then called overcompensating.
Yes... it was a slow death. I allowed you to kill me... slowly... painfully.
with every disapproving glare, one heartless bark... one drop in the bucket at a time.
and yet I kept wanting the approval and appreciation I knew I would never receive.
So when I finally decided to choose myself and save my sanity, it came as no surprise that the end of it all would soon follow.
I do not regret making that choice though. It has been the best decision I have made in the past 5 years... to finally choose myself, to stop taking your excuses, to see my worth, and to appreciate the people who do appreciate me.
I honestly do not care anymore what you say to everyone... they no longer matter. I'm just glad I got out when I did and that I saw you for what you truly are.
You can be a thousand beautiful reasons... just not with me. I was never fortunate enough to be allowed that with you.
